The Journey Begins

Why I Chose This Path

I really do feel that the path I am on is a path I was destined to be on.  I believe that I chose this life for myself before I was born.  I believe I chose my parents, my brother, my family and all of the amazing people I have met throughout my life.  All of them, agreeing to help me…….. my Soul Group.  To help me with all that I need to learn, to grow, to be a kinder and more loving person for myself and not just for everyone in my life. To learn and understand that it’s not just about me, to learn that we are all connected to each other, we all a part of each other and that we are connected to all life.  It’s my Soul on the line here and it’s the only one I’ve got.

All of this is for the growth of my Soul.  The things and people I need to help me on my Spiritual Journey have been provided for me, I just have to know where to look.  I just have to listen to my Guides and my Higher Self who only have my best interest at heart, all of this being for my highest good. Throughout all of this I have free will, I choose, I decide, I am the one that has to live with the choices I make.  I am the one that knows right from wrong, I am the one who knows when I have hurt someone because I can feel it…. I Know it….

When I was a lot younger, in my teenage years, I was always a good girl.  I didn’t cause my parents too much trouble but according to my mum, I cried a lot especially through puberty.  She said people only had to look at me and I cried. I felt things very deeply and even now I am still the same. I still cry a lot, I cry when I see sad films, I cry when I see animals in pain, I cry when other people cry or feel sad.  It’s like I can feel what they are feeling, I don’t always know why they are in pain but I can feel it.  It wasn’t until many years later I discovered that I was clairsentient.  I don’t feel everything other people feel so I don’t think I am fully clairsentient but the ability is there.  I am also clairvoyant, this I do know, as I see with my third eye.  I see images in my mind, sometimes they are moving images, sometimes they are not, sometimes it’s like I see snapshots in time.

I am also clairaudient.  I have been hearing that little inner voice all my life and when I started on the path I am now on, I realised that sometimes the voice was Spirit or my Higher Self but mostly it was my guides nudging me to start listening.  There were times though that I thought it was just me talking to myself and also thinking I was going a bit mad too.  I did think though, that I had come up with some amazing ideas and solutions to things when really it was mostly my guides helping me out.

I was always under the impression that to be clairaudient you had to have the great big booming voice outside of your head.  I thought that it had to be heard with my physical ears, little did I know that I was always hearing Spirit usually my guides with my inner ears.  I have also heard voices with my physical ears and let me tell you, the first time I heard someone calling my name very clearly with my actual ears, I thought I was going to have a heart attack with fright.  It was when I was in bed closing down for the night and saying my prayers when I heard someone call my name twice very clearly.  I stopped, held my breath and listened.  I didn’t hear anything else that night.  But I have heard a lot since, it was scary at first but I have gotten used to it now.  It’s not like they are having full blown conversations with me, just the odd words.

Most of it like I said earlier is with my inner ears.  That’s the one I have difficulty with, how do I know it’s really my guides?  How do I know that it is Spirit talking to me?  How do I know that I am not just making it all up?  TRUST……  With me, I ask questions and the answers start coming before I have finished my own sentence.  So it’s like two voices speaking at once.  The second voice sounds like my voice but just a little bit different.  Sometimes I don’t even get to finish the sentence before the answer comes back to me.   I have found that when they answer me, they speak a different way than I do, they word things differently.  For example I might ask “I am on the right path?” and the answer would be “Yes, you know you are”.  Its spoken clearly with no accent, I have a Scouse accent.

I am also claircognizant which means I know things.  I just KNOW things.  I don’t know how I know them I just do.  If someone lies to me I know they are lying to me, I know it and I feel it.  I can meet people and just by looking into their eyes I know if I like them or not.  They can be smiling and being very friendly towards me but there is just something that is ‘off’ about them.  I can see it in their eyes and I can feel it too.  I can’t always put my finger on it straight away but I just KNOW that I don’t want them in my life.  The worst part of claircognizance for me is that when someone I love lies to me, that hurts because I know they are standing in front of me telling me stories thinking I believe what they are saying when in actual fact I am hurt and sad that they feel the need to do this.  So I don’t say anything hoping that at some point they will tell me the truth.

I will go into the ins and outs of all the ‘clairs’ in another post soon.  You too have all of these abilities, it just depends on whether you want to use them or develop them.  You will already be using your intuition on a daily basis, some of you will know this, some of you won’t believe it anyway.  That’s fine, I am not here to tell you how to run your life I am just telling you how I run mine.  So the reason I chose this path was allow my Soul to grow and to learn.  I chose this path to live a more Spiritual life, to love myself, my life and to love all life.  I chose this path to learn to stop judging people, they are on their own path and that is their choice to do as they will.  If I can help anyone that needs it I will but one of the things I have to keep learning is that I cannot help everyone.

I am one of life’s ‘fixers’. I think I have to fix things for people and it has taken me a very long time to learn that it is not my job to do this.  We all have the life we have chosen, if it’s not what we want then it is up to us to change it.  Every choice, every decision we make has a tremendous impact on our lives so we must choose wisely…..but that is a discussion for another day……..

Thanks for joining me!

Lesley xx

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton