It’s been two years since I last wrote on here. I started off so well and wanted to do this blog and I had so many plans for it but life had other things planned for me instead. 2019 was a year of change for me, I became so busy with my meditation channel that there was no time for anything else. The groups that I managed became a lot busier too……..
2020 was a year of great change for all of us and not in a nice way. My Mum, who is in her eighties, broke her hip in March of that year and was practically thrown out of hospital due to the oncoming Corona Virus. Both of my parents were put in lock down so that left only me to keep them both going ie. doing all of their shopping and making sure they had everything they needed as they were no longer allowed to leave the house, have visitors or anything else they were used to doing.
I would go to them everyday and bring what they needed but had to put it in the porch, then ring the bell then scarper back down the path all to keep them safe….. It was in June of that same year that my lovely dad fell ill, not with the virus but with pneumonia. He was so terribly ill that they took him into hospital, which was the last place we wanted him to go. He remained there for nine weeks, contracting pneumonia another four times. This was very hard on us especially for my Mum who was suddenly very lost and very scared. They never once let us see him for obvious reasons, we did manage to speak to him on his mobile when he was well enough though.
Dad came out of hospital still very ill but they said he would get better quicker at home. Sadly that was not meant to be as after only seven weeks at home he was rushed in a second time, this time for a further five weeks. He was again desperately ill and we didn’t think he would come out again but he did only to die at home. I would like to say it was peaceful for him but it wasn’t as he was in a lot of pain. Dad suffered very much that last year of his life but there was nothing we could do to help be free from pain. He took his last breath on the 22 November 2020 aged 83 years old. It was then that mine and Mum’s life changed forever. Suddenly he was gone…….
The last nine months have been horrendous, especially for my Mum. She is like a lost soul just drifting through life, she is so deeply sad and very lonely. I am with her as much as I can be, I would like her to come and live with me but she has said no, she wants to stay in her home for as long as she can. So most days I am up and down to her house with the things she needs but most of all she needs company, my dad’s company…….
It is only now that I feel able to carry on with something I started two years ago. I still cry for dad but not as much as I used to, I miss him terribly. I miss his laugh, I miss his moaning when things didn’t go his way, I miss his lovely face but most of all I miss his voice. I can still hear it in my head but its not the same as the real thing…….
So from today, I will begin again with my blog……..
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