Author: stillwatersintuitiveblog

It’s been two years since I last wrote on here. I started off so well and wanted to do this blog and I had so many plans for it but life had other things planned for me instead. 2019 was a year of change for me, I became so busy with my meditation channel that there was no time for anything else. The groups that I managed became a lot busier too……..

2020 was a year of great change for all of us and not in a nice way. My Mum, who is in her eighties, broke her hip in March of that year and was practically thrown out of hospital due to the oncoming Corona Virus. Both of my parents were put in lock down so that left only me to keep them both going ie. doing all of their shopping and making sure they had everything they needed as they were no longer allowed to leave the house, have visitors or anything else they were used to doing.

I would go to them everyday and bring what they needed but had to put it in the porch, then ring the bell then scarper back down the path all to keep them safe….. It was in June of that same year that my lovely dad fell ill, not with the virus but with pneumonia. He was so terribly ill that they took him into hospital, which was the last place we wanted him to go. He remained there for nine weeks, contracting pneumonia another four times. This was very hard on us especially for my Mum who was suddenly very lost and very scared. They never once let us see him for obvious reasons, we did manage to speak to him on his mobile when he was well enough though.

Dad came out of hospital still very ill but they said he would get better quicker at home. Sadly that was not meant to be as after only seven weeks at home he was rushed in a second time, this time for a further five weeks. He was again desperately ill and we didn’t think he would come out again but he did only to die at home. I would like to say it was peaceful for him but it wasn’t as he was in a lot of pain. Dad suffered very much that last year of his life but there was nothing we could do to help be free from pain. He took his last breath on the 22 November 2020 aged 83 years old. It was then that mine and Mum’s life changed forever. Suddenly he was gone…….

The last nine months have been horrendous, especially for my Mum. She is like a lost soul just drifting through life, she is so deeply sad and very lonely. I am with her as much as I can be, I would like her to come and live with me but she has said no, she wants to stay in her home for as long as she can. So most days I am up and down to her house with the things she needs but most of all she needs company, my dad’s company…….

It is only now that I feel able to carry on with something I started two years ago. I still cry for dad but not as much as I used to, I miss him terribly. I miss his laugh, I miss his moaning when things didn’t go his way, I miss his lovely face but most of all I miss his voice. I can still hear it in my head but its not the same as the real thing…….

So from today, I will begin again with my blog……..

Spirit Guides – Who Are They?

When I first started on my Spiritual Journey I didn’t know what a Spirit Guide was, I didn’t know that I had one let alone what I supposed to do with one.  The circle I was in at the time taught me WHAT they were but they could never tell me WHO they were.  They just kept referring to them as “Guides”.  Whenever we were doing exercises to strengthen our abilities, they would say things like “For this exercise ask your guides for their help” or “Call upon your guides”.  So I would dutifully ‘Call upon my guides’ for their help never knowing who they were or what they looked like or if I am honest, if they were really there.  I thought that if you had one then they must be really special floaty, whispy beings sitting at the right hand of God who came down every now and then to whisper words of wisdom in my ears.  I just prayed that I could hear them.

I have though, over the years, learned to trust that I do have Spirit Guides and that they really are there.  That little voice in my head answering me when I ask a question, that tingly cold goose bumpy feeling running up my body, that calm and loving feeling that comes over me sometimes from nowhere just when I need it…..It’s just there. They are just there.

If like me, you would really like to see your guides or ask them their name the best way to do it is through meditation.  Find a quiet place where you won’t be disturbed, put on some calming, relaxing music or if you like, find a guided meditation to help you. When trying for the first time, I found it best to use a guided meditation and let someone lead the way for me. They can help you with your breathing and guide you to becoming really relaxed and quiet your mind. Set the intention before you start by asking to meet your guides or ask them if they will show themselves to you, don’t worry if nothing happens at first, just try again. They will come when you are ready to see them and remember not everyone “sees” their guides, some people may only hear them or maybe feel them, we are all different but guides come from Love, so that’s what you should be feeling.

The biggest thing to remember is that your Guides will NEVER tell you what to do, they are here to guide you or nudge you towards something that you may not yet have thought about. No-one is in control of your life but YOU.  It is up to you whether or not you listen to their advice but they are here to help you on your life’s journey, so why not make use of their vast knowledge.

My guides (poor souls) are the most wonderful of beings, how they put up with me I really don’t know….. I really think that they have to visit their own doctors to get repeat prescriptions of Valium to get through the day with me but I love them dearly and thank them every day for being with me in this life time.

This is just a short article about Guides, I will do a much longer one in the near future if anyone is interested, please feel free to leave a comment if you are.

So bye for now and if you feel like it, try meeting your own guides, they really can be lots of fun……

My Spiritual Journey really began about seven years ago when I went to have a Tarot reading.  The lady who did it had also put a Psychic Workshop together and asked me if I would like to join.  I said yes I would love to.  I went away thinking what the hell have I just agreed to.  A few days later after the excitement had worn off, I thought to myself “I’m not psychic, I’m not a medium. I don’t have the ‘special gift’ these people have”.  To be honest I think I started panicking there and then.  I thought I was going to make a laughing stock of myself but when the day came for me to go to the workshop, I pulled up my big girl panties and said to myself that if I messed it up I didn’t have to go back.  These people didn’t know me so I wouldn’t have to see them again.

I walked into the room and met two lovely ladies, they looked ordinary, they didn’t have horns growing out of their heads and they certainly didn’t talk in tongues so I thought I was relatively safe.  I took my seat along with about seven or eight other people and waited.  One of the group leaders made the introductions and told us exactly what we would be doing over the following weeks. We were informed that we were now a ‘circle’ and would eventually be able to talk to Spirit along with meditation, healing and lots more stuff.  Now I really knew I was out of my depth.  The thought of talking to dead people scared the crap out of me.

As it turned out it was probably the best thing I have ever done for myself.  I had given myself the gift of learning and growing with some of the most wonderful people I have ever met.  Most of whom are still my good friends today and we still meet every week in our own circle now. I stayed in that original circle for about a year and really learned a lot about the Spirit World and all things Spiritual.  The circle broke up after a year because of a power shift between the two leaders with one of them turning it into something other what it originally was.  One of the leaders of the original group wanted to concentrate on healing only and the meditations she had us doing were getting longer and longer and to be honest pretty damn boring.

We weren’t being taught the ‘spooky stuff’ anymore and this was the stuff I was really interested in.  So I decided to leave as it wasn’t going to help me anymore on my path, seven of us broke a way and created our own circle.  It was supposed to be that each one of us would lead the new group in turn each week but it didn’t work out that way at all.  It turned out that I (the one who moaned the most about the meditations) ended up running the group and creating all the meditations.  So much so, that myself and one of the others in the group now have our own YouTube channel filled with meditations for adults and children and it is doing really well too.

So my Spirit Guides knew what they were doing.  They guided me to have a Tarot reading, they guided me to join the original group and then guided me to create meditations.  Everything that has happened to me since then has been my journey and for all that they have done for me, I am eternally grateful to them.  Of course, that’s exactly what my guides did…GUIDE not insist, not tell me to do it, just put certain things on my path and I made my own decisions. It is something I wished I had done a very long time ago but I was just not ready, I hadn’t learned enough.  There were things I had to experience first in order to become who I needed to be and I wouldn’t change it for the world…..

Why I Chose This Path

I really do feel that the path I am on is a path I was destined to be on.  I believe that I chose this life for myself before I was born.  I believe I chose my parents, my brother, my family and all of the amazing people I have met throughout my life.  All of them, agreeing to help me…….. my Soul Group.  To help me with all that I need to learn, to grow, to be a kinder and more loving person for myself and not just for everyone in my life. To learn and understand that it’s not just about me, to learn that we are all connected to each other, we all a part of each other and that we are connected to all life.  It’s my Soul on the line here and it’s the only one I’ve got.

All of this is for the growth of my Soul.  The things and people I need to help me on my Spiritual Journey have been provided for me, I just have to know where to look.  I just have to listen to my Guides and my Higher Self who only have my best interest at heart, all of this being for my highest good. Throughout all of this I have free will, I choose, I decide, I am the one that has to live with the choices I make.  I am the one that knows right from wrong, I am the one who knows when I have hurt someone because I can feel it…. I Know it….

When I was a lot younger, in my teenage years, I was always a good girl.  I didn’t cause my parents too much trouble but according to my mum, I cried a lot especially through puberty.  She said people only had to look at me and I cried. I felt things very deeply and even now I am still the same. I still cry a lot, I cry when I see sad films, I cry when I see animals in pain, I cry when other people cry or feel sad.  It’s like I can feel what they are feeling, I don’t always know why they are in pain but I can feel it.  It wasn’t until many years later I discovered that I was clairsentient.  I don’t feel everything other people feel so I don’t think I am fully clairsentient but the ability is there.  I am also clairvoyant, this I do know, as I see with my third eye.  I see images in my mind, sometimes they are moving images, sometimes they are not, sometimes it’s like I see snapshots in time.

I am also clairaudient.  I have been hearing that little inner voice all my life and when I started on the path I am now on, I realised that sometimes the voice was Spirit or my Higher Self but mostly it was my guides nudging me to start listening.  There were times though that I thought it was just me talking to myself and also thinking I was going a bit mad too.  I did think though, that I had come up with some amazing ideas and solutions to things when really it was mostly my guides helping me out.

I was always under the impression that to be clairaudient you had to have the great big booming voice outside of your head.  I thought that it had to be heard with my physical ears, little did I know that I was always hearing Spirit usually my guides with my inner ears.  I have also heard voices with my physical ears and let me tell you, the first time I heard someone calling my name very clearly with my actual ears, I thought I was going to have a heart attack with fright.  It was when I was in bed closing down for the night and saying my prayers when I heard someone call my name twice very clearly.  I stopped, held my breath and listened.  I didn’t hear anything else that night.  But I have heard a lot since, it was scary at first but I have gotten used to it now.  It’s not like they are having full blown conversations with me, just the odd words.

Most of it like I said earlier is with my inner ears.  That’s the one I have difficulty with, how do I know it’s really my guides?  How do I know that it is Spirit talking to me?  How do I know that I am not just making it all up?  TRUST……  With me, I ask questions and the answers start coming before I have finished my own sentence.  So it’s like two voices speaking at once.  The second voice sounds like my voice but just a little bit different.  Sometimes I don’t even get to finish the sentence before the answer comes back to me.   I have found that when they answer me, they speak a different way than I do, they word things differently.  For example I might ask “I am on the right path?” and the answer would be “Yes, you know you are”.  Its spoken clearly with no accent, I have a Scouse accent.

I am also claircognizant which means I know things.  I just KNOW things.  I don’t know how I know them I just do.  If someone lies to me I know they are lying to me, I know it and I feel it.  I can meet people and just by looking into their eyes I know if I like them or not.  They can be smiling and being very friendly towards me but there is just something that is ‘off’ about them.  I can see it in their eyes and I can feel it too.  I can’t always put my finger on it straight away but I just KNOW that I don’t want them in my life.  The worst part of claircognizance for me is that when someone I love lies to me, that hurts because I know they are standing in front of me telling me stories thinking I believe what they are saying when in actual fact I am hurt and sad that they feel the need to do this.  So I don’t say anything hoping that at some point they will tell me the truth.

I will go into the ins and outs of all the ‘clairs’ in another post soon.  You too have all of these abilities, it just depends on whether you want to use them or develop them.  You will already be using your intuition on a daily basis, some of you will know this, some of you won’t believe it anyway.  That’s fine, I am not here to tell you how to run your life I am just telling you how I run mine.  So the reason I chose this path was allow my Soul to grow and to learn.  I chose this path to live a more Spiritual life, to love myself, my life and to love all life.  I chose this path to learn to stop judging people, they are on their own path and that is their choice to do as they will.  If I can help anyone that needs it I will but one of the things I have to keep learning is that I cannot help everyone.

I am one of life’s ‘fixers’. I think I have to fix things for people and it has taken me a very long time to learn that it is not my job to do this.  We all have the life we have chosen, if it’s not what we want then it is up to us to change it.  Every choice, every decision we make has a tremendous impact on our lives so we must choose wisely…..but that is a discussion for another day……..

Thanks for joining me!

Lesley xx

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton